Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Dude, you already got her! She's now yours, so step up, man up, and treat her right or she won't be yours for long.

Dude, you already got her!
Lucky that she's now yours.
So get up, step up, man up.
Treat her right and special or,
She won't be yours for long.

Dear Hakim, my best friend for almost 17 years. I thought you'd always be the one constant in my life, the one person I could rely on, but finally I realize that I was wrong. I'm sorry for not knowing how much you've care for me all this while. I'm sorry for not knowing how much you've needed me in your life. I'm sorry for not noticing that you've missed me every second of your life. I'm sorry for not realizing how much you've loved me all the time. I'm sorry for never ever knowing that you've waited for me for so long. I'm sorry for I've wasted your time waiting for me since then. I'm sorry for we've been best friend since baby. I'm sorry for we can't be together. I'm sorry for you can't have me for more. I'm sorry if I hurt you alot. I'm sorry for everything.

We just can't be together. We're best friend and for one reason that you have to note, best friend doesn't break! Best friend doesn't cheat on one another. Best friend doesn't hate one another. Best friend doesn't trouble each other. Best friend doesn't fall apart. Best friend doesn't fall together. Best friend doesn't fall in love. Best friend love each other as best friend. Best friend care for each other as brother and sister. Best friend laugh together. Best friend talk to one another. Best friend are best friend. Just like who we are! Best friend grows and never have to reach a point. Never have to quarrel. Never have to misunderstand. Never have to stop. Most of all, best friend never fall together. They never fall in love!

I'm sorry for I thought that best friend doesn't have to keep secrets from one another. I'm sorry for I've made you think that best friend will be together forever. I'm sorry for I've made you love me. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for telling you that I've someone special inside. I'm sorry for making you guess too much. I'm sorry for making you hard to understand me. I'm sorry for the special someone inside is not you. I'm sorry for making your life miserable. I'm sorry for you have to understand that  you're not the one for me. I'm sorry for you've to get some spaces for my newcomer. I'm sorry for you've to believe that he can look after me. I'm so sorry!

At least I knew that I've someone like you dear friend. Thank you for trying to understand me as well. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for saying this to me. "He's not perfect. You aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don't hurt him, don't change him, and don't expect more than he can give. Don't analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guy that is perfect for you."

Dear Special Az, you and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love. The thing is, you make me happy. You walked in when it seemed like the rest of the world walked out. You were there, you are there. I never need to pretend when I am around you, when I am talking, when I am with you. You are hilarious, you make me laugh all the time. You seem to pick up when something is wrong before everyone else does, and you know exactly what to say to make it all okay. And even if it is only for a little while, it helps. The thing is, I might love you. It was odd your deep blue eyes met my brown, and we didn't look away. For a moment we were caught in this awkward, staring, glance-like thing and then you did the most amazing thing when you finally looked away then you smiled. They say the little things in life matter the most, but you're a big part of me and you matter the most.

I hope that someday, somebody, someone like you want to hold me for twenty minutes straight, and that's all they do. They don't pull away, they don't look at my face, they don't try to kiss me. All they do is wrap me up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it. And this feeling, right here, is the exact reason why I never gave up on you when everyone else said stop trying. You're a perfect guy to me. You're so beautiful, and the kind of beautiful that melts my heart and eases my mind at any sign of discomfort. It's the way you tilt you head to the left, or that smile, the one where I feel you looking at me, and I mean really looking at me. You're beautiful, and the kind of beautiful that steals my heart and my breath away.

I really enjoy spending time with you, even if we're just going to be sitting around and talking about nothing. There are a million things I love about you, like your nose or the way you smile, the way you look me in the eyes too. And I just get the greatest feeling when I make you laugh, I feel as if my company makes you happy, and that's what I wish for you. For you to be happy. And when I see you laugh at my clumsy ways, it just makes me want to spend the rest of my time with you so I can see a smile on your face. She believed in dreams, all right, but she also believed in doing something about them. When prince charming don’t come along. She went over to the palace and got him.

When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change our feelings because it's the mind that gets angry, but the heart still cares. And I believe in you, even if no one understands. I really love you.


Sunday, January 8, 2012

The things on the table mess-up when you entered the room.

I wonder why is it so hard for people to hold onto promises they made. Why were promises always broken? What is for some fortune in the after? Or to punish for something that we did wrong in the past? Or to teach us a lesson that failed is the first step towards success.

Human changes. Fate stays. Karma reflects. That is how life flows. We should be tough enough to live the life that we had to enjoy the sorrows of yesterday and laughter of tomorrow.I am so grateful to have Allah's fate on my life. He gives me sickness and shorten my age. Even I won't stay longer, at least I've got instinct to that. I'll be having an operation in 7days time. May luck always with me.

Though it hurts me alot when I got to know about this no-joking news, yeah at least Allah had given all the chances for me. I was being loved by a guy and Allah gives me the opportunity to put some sort of love in my soul for him. Swear that I've never feel the touch of love from outsider before but he was the one and only. I thanked Allah for putting this unconditional love for him even he just loved me for once. But I bet that he will fall in love again with me because of his swear in the name of Allah. I trust that every people making a pledge with Allah's name will surely fulfill it. They won't dare to go against it as they wouldn't want to have a tragic death for breaking it.

Dear MAR, I trust you. I've never left you either waited for you. I just let it be nice with the flow. If ever you turn back to be with me, I believe that you're really meant for me. As if you never change and never want to come back, I just wish you a thousands of happiness and may you life with the blessing of Allah.

Dear MA, I thanked you so much for coming into my life and bring the bright shines to my day. If it happens that we are being together, we will meet again somehow. You mess up the table when you entered the room. You've made me in dilemma either to stay with the one and only or to try very hard on you.

Whatever it is, I still let the only Allah to determine it. I've no power to choose.