I think life is simpler than we tend to think. We look for answers and more answers. But there are no answers. Things happen in life, good things and bad. People say, 'why did it happen to me?' Well, why not? Some people win the lottery, and others die in a car crash. It happens, and there is nothing we can do about it. The universe doesn't care what happens to you!
You can't put one relationship on hold for another. It's like call waiting. You leave one person on hold long enough, they're gonna hang up. I think its crazy how he can’t bear to see me by another guy side, but he doesn’t want me right by his, either. Isn't it weird? Yes he is. Maybe the reason why you have to stop loving a person is because fate chose both of you to be friends, where forever is a lot more possible. So what I'm gonna do now is just as simple as ABC like what I did before. Get up. Move on.
But hey boy, just remember one thing! One fine day, when the world seems to ignore your presence and all the people around you seems to avoid and pretending you're not there, by time you'll realized how worth I'm to you. So you thought you were gonna throw it back in my face, well tell me how do my leftovers taste? Now that I'm gone, you've finally realized that I was worth waiting for. But, obviously, you weren't. You make the wrong choice. Always. Regret. That's the one word you'll only find the meaning of your life.
You can call it fate, or destiny. Sometimes it really seems like it's a mystery, cause you can be hurt by love, or healed by the same, timing is everything. And it can happen so fast, or a little bit late, but still timing is everything. This is when the fake laugh comes in to play 'cause its days like today when it's better to just pretend that everything is okay.
Ever since I was born, since the first time I spoke a word to my mom, she taught me something valuable which I'm afraid and phobia of till today. She always said 'don't be afraid to fall in love. It's the only thing that matters in life.' Well I never found the truth in her word. I live in environment of love. My parents love each other. My siblings love one another. My brothers love their lady and my little younger loves their partner. I see how love matters in life then. But I can't feel it either 'cause I'm not the person worth it for love. I'm not that type.
Time moves and I keep thinking every moment of my life. I love you and I probably always will. But we go days without having meaningful conversations. And I used to miss you so much when that happened, but it never seemed like you missed me, and I guess because of that, I should stop missing you.
Well I used to get 'we gotta stop rethinking things. Because normally, our first thoughts are the right ones. The real ones.'
People around will never help you. That's what life promises us. But when everything in life ruined, they matter the most about the things you should have done long ago. They whispered. Hey boy, see that girl? Yeah, she’s the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up till midnight just to talk to you. She’s the one whose heart flutters when she gets a call or text from you, the one who says good morning every time she gets the opportunity, and the one who prays she’ll get a chance to say goodnight. Boy, she’s the one who fought for you, the one that missed you and loved you. But by the time you realize that she’s the girl you want, she’ll already be with the guy who figured it out.
The past year has been filled with tears, heartbreak and constant worrying. Just as I threw the towel in and walked away from love. What I really hope that's, when you came in, you showed me that not all boys leave and that it’s okay to give your all to someone. For the first time in a while I feel like I'm on top of the world so please, I beg you, don't break my heart! For the second time! Once again. Please don't!
Everyone wish for one perfect thing happen in their life. So am I. You know when you finally get over someone and then you look back on them like a month or a year later and you think like wow I was so stupid? Or you talk with your best friends about past crushes and everyone laughs at all the boys they've liked in their past and you make fun of each other for all the stupid boys you liked? Well I'm really waiting for that moment with you. I want to be over you and I want to be able to laugh and think how dumb I was for being hooked on you for so long. I want to be able to brush it off and just move on. I can't wait for that moment.
Loving you is wonderful, and complicated; and yet it makes me feel as if I'm conquering the world.
I just can't even describe the feeling you give me. It's like when I'm talking to you or when I'm with you, I just forget about everything else. As cliché as it sounds, you make me so incredibly happy. I just wonder what being around me makes you feel
I want to be the girl who makes your bad days better and who makes you say my life has changed since I've been with her. Thinking of you always keeps me awake; dreaming of you keeps me asleep and being with you, keeps me alive. The best feeling in the world knows you finally took a step in the right direction; a step towards the future where everything that you never thought was possible is possible.
These other guys are sweet, and they treat me right, but none of them give me the feelings I got around you. But I guess I've come to accept second best, because that's all anyone's been since I met you. Even if you think the flame has died, there's a least one lyric that'll hit that last hot spot, and then you'll find yourself as fucked as you were the day you lied and said you never wanted to see me again!
Life is the ability to feel so happy; you think your insides are going to explode. It's being so upset or disappointed, you feel as if your stomach just dropped ten feet out of place. It's running so hard, you can barely breathe. T\It's the feeling of panic when you know you've been caught doing something wrong. It's having that sudden rush before you kiss someone you care about. It's opening your eyes and feeling the sting because you spent the whole night crying. It's letting people go because new ones come in, and all the while realizing that life doesn't have a purpose unless you let it. When I'm with you I feel like that's where I belong and honestly, that's the only place I want to be.
You know that feeling? That feeling as if you're on top of the world? The feeling you get after your first date. The feeling you get after you laugh with your best friend. The feeling you get when meeting your idol. That’s how life should feel every day.
Someone will always be prettier. They will always be smarter. Their house will always be bigger. They will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school, and their husbands will fix more things about the house. So let it go, and love yourself and your circumstances. Think about it: the prettiest women in the world have turmoil in their house, and the highly favored woman at your job may be unable to have children. And the richest woman you know, she's got the car, the house, and the clothes but might be lonely. And the world says "if I have no love, I am nothing." So again, love that you are. Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say "I am blessed to be stressed and too anointed to be disappointed. Winners make things happen, losers let things happen.
DOODLES OF FATIN MAZLAN , XX :)
